Seeking answers to my pain

I began to have panic attacks at the age of 19. I had very bad stomach pains. After many medical tests, lab work, and doctors, nothing was found to be abnormal. It was very frustrating. Here I am having all of these real physical symptoms until finally at one of my doctor visits, the doctor said it was all in my head and gave me a prescription for an anti-depression medication.

I didn’t get it, I was lost and confused. I went through many years of seeing therapists and psychiatrists lost. I would be asked how I was feeling and I didn’t know how to put it into words. I remember crying and praying that I would just be happy. Why couldn’t anyone or anything make me happy?

After many years of self-betrayal, self-sabotage, and giving my power away to others I decided to start seeking an answer in the library. The first book I read was “Change your brain, change your life” by Daniel Amen. This book gave me an epiphany. I finally saw my symptoms put into words. I learned that not every thought that goes through your mind is true.

That was nine years ago when I read that book and had started the process of my healing. Slowly I started practicing what I was learning and changed the way my mind thinks. I still have a long way to go. I hope to give inspiration to others to start seeking answers for themselves too. There is hope.

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